The Sharp Left Turn of 2014
Putting together this website has made me realize that I've made a lot more music than I thought. A considerable amount....literally dozens of released tracks. Of course, that's just the tip of the iceberg of all the unreleased work that I have over here at the AfroPhysics Lab. I've been putting in work pretty consistently since I picked up the pen and pad. Sometimes, I get down on myself and think that I should be producing more but I think this is a sensation and emotion that is shared by every artist on Earth, regardless of their medium or genre.
You always want to do more. The problem isn't always coming up with the ideas but manifesting one good idea and birthing it into the world before the next great one pops into your head and wants to be birthed, as well. It's been a struggle to create time and space to make all these things happen, but it's a beautiful struggle; one that I'm actively engaging in each and every day.
My track record shows that I've produced things on a regular basis
...but, I didn't make hardly any music in 2014.
2014 was the funny odd year. In all, I think I only released 3 tracks and 2 of the tracks just had one verse on it. The other was a mash-up remix that I did one weekend. These weren't music projects as much as they were small blips of thought and activity on the radar screen of my music navigation system.
I've been sitting back and trying to parse through that year, hoping to come across some sort of reason why things slowed down so much. 2014, I remember, is the year of the Horse In the Chinese Zodiac. It resonated with me since my very first song was "Iron Horse". I even made "Part 2" to that song. (Scroll to the bottom to check it out.) (Side note: I believe last year was actually the year of the *wooden* horse, not the Iron Horse...maybe that explains everything lol jk)
I look back at last year as a time of a big shift. I've changed many things from the beginning of 2014, ranging from relationships to where I live. The change that had the biggest impact on my life would definitely have to be my change in career path, though. Changing from the non-profit world to that of Academia and the Sciences is a significant shift. Wouldn't necessarily say it was a 180, but it is most definitely a sharp left turn from the trajectory on which I was at the time.
After really thinking about it all, the big takeaway that I got from it all is that *change itself* is what slowed down productivity during 2014. Change is good but change takes its toll. Nothing is free. Sometimes, you have to sacrifice one thing to gain another. The change in my life was needed. I'm happy with the sharp left turn that I made. Yet, I doubt that I could have made that turn in the manner that I did it if I continued to do things the exact same way.
Also, looking back at it, music was just one of an assortment of things that fell to the back burner during my sharp-left-turn-metamorphosis. I talked to friends and family less. I went out less. When I did go out, I didn't go to the places I used to always go. A lot of new things were happening at the sacrifice of the things that I've done for so long.
But not everything that I left behind with that sharp left turn should've been left behind. Some things needed to come with me. One of those things is definitely my music. I've recently realized two things: A lot of you who know me don't know that I do music (which is WEIRD) and, secondly, those that do know my music have told me that you like and respect it. That I should be doing more of it.
So, I'm working on ways to keep it going, especially whilst I'm fully engaged in the horrors and wily ways of Grad School Physics. On keeping it all going. Not just the music. The friends. The ideas. The spirit. The essence of what I was doing before I made the sharp left turn. Some things are left behind. But the lessons, the experience and the accomplishments are coming along for the ride.